Thursday 13 January 2011

eighty

how to feel:

sad / relieved / jealous / angry / excited / dulled / confused / owed something more.

attachment is so, so strange. what will i miss, what do i already miss? the presence of someone at the end of a phone, knowing that i won't be able to share something i saw (welcomed or not).

and then, the realisation that maybe i have lost nothing, because his feelings had changed. can you lose something you only thought you had?
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4 comments:

  1. geneviève bjargardóttir13 January 2011 at 21:22

    this is heartbreaking

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  2. Elisabeth15 January 2011 at 08:32

    This sounds familiar to me. I 'm drawn to your blog via Elisabelle, in part because you share your name with one of my daughters. And here I find such heartfelt thoughts and images. Thanks.

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  3. eleanor15 January 2011 at 10:32

    @geneviève but I know (hope) that there is something more hopeful mixed in there.

    @Elisabeth it is comforting to hear you say that - it's so easy to slip into feeling like heartbreak is yours and yours alone (which is silly, I know).

    And you have wonderful taste in names :)

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  4. geneviève bjargardóttir17 January 2011 at 12:10

    there is, always <3

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